The Bait of Satan -- WOW

I have just recently moved to Arkansas... so here I am in my little NE part of Arkansas jsut fg so relieved to be away from Kansas. I have been trying so hard to forget Kansas, and wanting to never talk about it again. My Best Friend suggests a book for me to read, knowing that I will need to let go of a lot of things, and that there is some healing I need to do. The Bati of Satan by John Bevere was the first book I started with. There is another one Im going to read, but I figured this one was right there so I thought I'd grab it and run with it for now.

So here I am at a half way point. While leaving Kansas I did understand, some what, that I was going to need to forgive some people, mainly the state overseer. I knew that because they had hurt me I had to forgive them so that I would be able to continue in ministry as God has called me to do. But then as I begin this book... it gets me right in the very FIRST Chapter.. Oh Lord help me through this book! LOL! I read this passage Pride causes you to view yourself as a victim. Your attitude becomes, "I was mistreated and misjudged; therefore, I am justified in my behaviour." Because you believe you are innocent and falsely accused, you hold back forgiveness. Just because you were mistreated, you do NOT have permission to hold on to an offense. Two wrongs do not make a right. Boy oh boy did that get me good! That's what I meant when I said I was only at the half way point. I knew what these people did to me was wrong... but what I failed to see was my sin in the situation as well. I am starting to remember some other things the Bible has told me before... vengence is the Lords. I am justified by faith. It is not my job to bring justice to the situation. It is my job to forgive those who hurt or offend me, and let God take care of the situation.

my memory verse for today is 1 Peter 1:6-7 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, thought it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ. This verse tells me so much. Kansas was a trail for me to bring out the garbage that had been in me so long. God wants me to remember Kansas, not as the wretched place as I'd like to view it, but as the trial that ehlped me grow, that burned out dorss and imperfections I had. I now really believe what GOd had laid on my heart... the next three months for me is a healing period... Kansas was the fire that brought the impurities to the surface.. I am now at a place where god can scoop the flux off the top! Hallelujah!